Take it off | Week 48: Welcome Home


I wasn't sure what I was going to write about today. If you are a regular visitor to my blog, you probably noticed that it's been quiet here in the past week. I'm feeling a little lost (again) as I ruminate on all the feelings I was having last weekI've been reflecting a lot on my journey so far and where I want it to take me. And honestly...I don't know. 

I don't know. 


And not having a plan, a goal (other than the obvious weight loss goal) or a purpose makes me itchy and fidgety. 

I don't know who I am right now. I know who I was before Medifast: 
  • Lazy
  • selfish
  • unmotivated
  • unhealthy 
  • dying slowly
I don't know who I am right now as I struggle to identify with this new body and new way of life. There is a lot of fear for me in getting to goal. I've never known a life that didn't include dieting. But what kind of tangible goal can I attain from this other than physical and mental changes? Should there be one? Shouldn't every journey end with 'something' to show from it?

I've been feeling lost and desperately searching for some kind of divine inspiration to keep myself on the right path. I'm pouring through old posts to reignite my barely flickering flame as I struggle through these cold, winter months that pull at my emotions, sap my energy, and cloud my mind with self-doubt. Nothing is working.

And this morning as the idea of even beginning to write a weight loss post nearly brought me to tears, I saw this:

I don't know who I am right now - but I know who I want to become. 

  • Driven
  • Healthy
  • An inspiration
  • A mentor
  • A role model
  • A person with anxiety disorders under control
  • A success
  • An imperfect being at peace with their life
I don't know where these labels will take me - if anywhere at all. Or if there will be anything tangible other than smaller clothing. But I know it will be the me I was always meant to be and I will be where I should have always been. 

I can't wait to be welcomed home.

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It should come as no surprise that my case of the blahs is in part due to being frustrated with the scale. I had a good start to the month with a two pound loss but little by little it has petered out. I didn't lose anything this week. But I have an extra day in February to make up for this, right? :)

Oh and that commercial? That's an actual Medifast success story. Jessica Westmoreland lost 85 lbs on the Medifast 5&1 Plan. Since losing weight with Medifast, Jessica has shown us all how to “Become Yourself” by starting her own law firm, becoming an athlete and planning her upcoming wedding.

Great work, Jessica. I'm looking forward to joining the ranks of the Medifast success stories. 

Month One: -16 lbs
Month Two: -5 lbs
Month Three: -6 lbs
Month Four: -6 lbs
Month Five: -6 lbs
Month Six: -8.5 lbs

Month Seven: -7.5 lbs
Month Eight: -5 lbs
Month Nine: -2 lbs
Month Ten: -5 lbs
Month Eleven: -6 lbs
Week forty five: -2
Week forty six: -1
Week forty seven: -1
Week forty eight: -0

Total: 77 lbs gone forever! Current weight: 163 lbs Distance from goal: 23 lbs!!
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*FTC Disclosure: Medifast provides their products for my personal use for free. I am not paid or compensated in any other way for mentioning their products. All thoughts written here are mine. I love complaining so I would tell you if I didn't like something in the program. :)

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